One With Life
One of the biggest lies I tell myself is “I live my life”.
When I examined the lie “I” realized “LIFE lives me”.
“I” do not breathe; “I” do not circulate blood, “I” do not digest; LIFE does these for “me”.
“I” can only be aware of the processes of LIFE when “I” pay attention to them.
The “I” referenced is the ego.
There are two types of egos, one ‘ripe’ and the other ‘unripe’. “Nothing is mine, whatever I see or feel, or hear, nay, even this body itself, is not mine; I am always eternal, free and all-knowing,”―such ideas arise from the ‘ripe’ ego. “This is my house, this is my child, this is my wife, this is my body,”―thoughts of this kind are the manifestation of the ‘unripe’ ego. – Sayings of Sri Ramakrishna
Ego is only my way of expressing my individual physical existence; I can nevertheless express it in “ripe” or “unripe” ways.
Ego is only a pattern of energy that I create to express my individual physical existence.
Alter-egos are negative patterns of energy that I create to express specific negative energy. The largest alter-ego I have examined in me is the PAIN pattern. The purpose of the PAIN pattern is to give and receive PAIN; even the law of compensation (give-receive) can be distorted to negative purposes.
Other negative patterns of energy that I create: resentment, inferiority, superiority, guilt, shame, …etc.; the purpose of each negative energy pattern is to give and receive that negative energy.
I am finding that practicing “being in the present moment” encourages “ripe” expressions and discourages “unripe” expressions. The opposite is also true.
There is one word that best describes “being in the present moment” and that is awareness.
I practice placing my awareness in my breath, in my hands, in my feet, …etc. After I can “sense” a tingling of presence in an area of my body I then imagine light, heat, heaviness, …etc. immerse the area; this makes a wonderful meditative practice. I can also use my imagination to envision PAIN I am experiencing as a dark entity that I move outside of myself and return it to the earth; the final destination of my physical form.
A sure way of “being in the present moment” is by placing my awareness in any part of my body. The Life that lives me only resides in the present moment; so I come back to the present moment; so I bring my awareness back to the body.
Three modalities of awakened action while “being in the present moment” :
1. Acceptance – of those things that cause negative emotions and unhappiness to arise in me. The things I cannot do with Enjoyment or Enthusiasm I must learn to Accept.
Matthew 5:25-26 Agree with your adversary quickly, while you are with him on the way; lest perhaps the prosecutor deliver you to the judge, and the judge deliver you to the officer, and you be cast into prison. Most certainly I tell you, you shall by no means get out of there, until you have paid the last penny.
Agree comes from two Greek words meaning:
First – give thyself wholly to; I exist (used only when emphatic)
Second – to be well minded, that is, reconcile
Adversary comes from a Greek word meaning:
An opponent (in a lawsuit)- adversary; which is a compound of two other Greek words meaning opposite and right or justice.
Remember an adversarial emotion or feeling is always inside the person doing the experiencing.
Jesus wasn’t just talking about how to handle myself in a court proceeding; but how to live an abundant life. This is a lesson about what I experience within.
My definition of Acceptance – to give myself wholly to; I exist with so that I might be well minded or reconciled toward.
2. Enjoyment – doing those things that bring joy while consciously performed.
When I am in this modality I find that the ego can only appear momentarily and if I do not let it interrupt my action the joy drives it away.
3. Enthusiasm – doing those things that bring intense and eager enjoyment while consciously performed. The word was originally used to refer to a person possessed by God; inspired.
When I am in this modality I find that the more intensity and eagerness with which I enjoy the action the less any small fragments of the ego can even flash across my awareness.